I can feel the swell of heartbreak, in my chest…
in my smile.
I look for love
Always trying to drink from a dry well
Hurting myself, forgetting to breathe
Suffocated by the misery of unkept promises,
Wondering how I will survive another day shadowed in sadness…
Another day of being alone
Wanted by men who are really just boys,
Pursued half heartedly by whores,
Not one of them strong enough to hold me…to hug me.
I look down, escaping the eyes of those around me.
Knowing that they see me for nothing…nothing of my truth.
I’m battleworn not broken.
I need support not saving.
I need eyes and tongue,
a hand on my leg when he’s driving.
Possession though I won’t be owned,
I swallow the tears back…
the lovesickness dispelling gloom from my essence,
The longing morphing time into an eternity of sorrow.
I am unloved. Forgotten and gone already.
Dying more each day in my self sacrifice.
Wishing for everything
and getting only that which I have bled for.
Bleeding on this paper,
I die again and am reborn into the lone wolf,
alone and hungry.